good advice i just wasn’t ready to take…
thank you so much for the comment below. i think deep inside i’m avoiding talking to my sister because it’s going to be emotional AND i’m not looking forward to hearing how i may have contributed to any hurts they’re experiencing. just for once i want to be cared about by them without any strings attached.
i think this was designed by fate (God). my hubby is good friends with my bro-in-law. they spent some time together yesterday and just consciously avoided talking about us sisters. well, today my sister called. i couldn’t take the call (i know) but it’s a step and i’ll respond to her maybe through email or a letter to let her know i got her message. i’m just not ready – i’m trying but it’s a really long story and years and years of hurt that have come together now.
March 10, 2008 at 1:53 pm
“just for once I want to be cared about by them with no strings attached.”
Good luck with that one. Families are better than tne general public at loving you despite your flaws, but no human continues long in a relationship if there is nothing in it for them. While we may strive to be more Christlike in this area, many of us fall short. Remembering that forgiveness is a blessing to the heart that forgives is sometimes harder than others but it is in those instances that the emotional release is more powerful. Forgiving your family is a blessing for you and for the family and for the world at large.
I have quite a few posts on my blog about forgiveness. Please come visit when you have time. I will continue to think of you as you find your way to a peaceful co-existance with your family. Your hurt is a burden I wish I could help you to lay down. http://getsomehairapy.wordpress.com