oh so hurt by the sisters again…

well, just found out from my parents that my sisters are planning a trip to italy together.  have i been invited?  no.  that hurts and rightly so.  if i were to plan something big like that and left one sister out she’d be hurt.  i can’t imagine they don’t think this affects me.

i want to handle this well.  i don’t want to lash out or say something mean but what the heck?  how do i forgive the past when over and over in the present i’m being hurt.?  i really don’t know.  why be like this?  why not include me or treat me like i matter?  how do i go on not letting this affect my emotions or taking over my thoughts when i least expect it?

how tiring growing as a person and learning to forgive is…yet, i know it not only is the right thing to do, it makes me a better person.  my children, my husband and every other relationship i have will be better when i don’t harbor anger and resentment from hurt.

how, how do i move forward?  actually loving the person i’m hurt by or angry with is helping.  i need a span of time to grow without have to deal with something new to get over.  ahhhhhhhhh, my mind, my heart.  ouch.