staying true to my heart…

done with one email and have the rough draft for the second.  hubby and therapist are helping with both.  thank goodness i didn’t really need to make any changes in the first email.  the second one i may need more help because #1 – this sister has hurt me deeply and often  #2 – she doesn’t process information like other people.

i hope her hubby reads the email and helps her respond in the same manner it will be sent – trying not to hurt yet get through this because of hurt.  i also think (but don’t know) that she’s had sister #2’s ear and has influenced the lack of communication i’m experiencing.

really, i’m reaching out to her because i know it’s the right thing to do, not because i want to.  although, i want to do what’s right and best for my heart AND our children so…i guess in a way i do want to.  hmmmmmmm.  i’ve just got to do something to get my mind back on things that aren’t so painful all the time.