i have got to get through this

my sisters will be here tomorrow and all i want to do is read them the riot act.  nothing good could come of that.  kindness and compassion and understanding is what i have wanted from them…i have got to behave with those attributes toward them.  it will be almost a year since we’ve spoken.  i have no idea how this is going to be.  neither of them has responded for over a month to my last email.

imagine the shock when my mom told me one of my sisters wanted our two biological children to come and spend time with her.  what?  she hasn’t shown an ounce of interest in how they’re doing.  when our son was in the hospital she never called to see how he was.  she didn’t call or send a card this year in honor of our son who passed away.  i am completely confused by my sisters.

i’m torn by how to behave and how i want to behave.  tomorrow.  we’ll see which side of me wins.