what I come home to

had a great vacation.  checked my email periodically to see what the saturday line-up for the band would be…nothing all week.  friday night we get home from a 9 hour drive, I check my email and viola’…I’m suppose to lead and pick all the songs.  does lame-ass do this to anyone else when they lead?  no…just me.  he couldn’t have emailed sunday or monday to let me know to be thinking ahead?  did he even care while he’s emailing me friday night that i might be worn out from a long trip.  nope, because here’s what most likely happened…he asked a couple other people to lead and when they said no because of the short notice he turns to me and just throws it in my lap.  he knows i can’t say no because of my husbands job and the position that puts me in.

i know i’ve been working like hell to change how i deal with ass-holes.  i’ve gotten pretty good with “t” and my sisters.  i know i can get past this but geez.  when i’ve pointed out things to him that i find offensive and he continues to do it how can i not take it as a personal attack?   i can’t talk to him about it because it’s like talking to a pouty brick wall.  because of his issues, attitude, ability to lead, etc…he shouldn’t have this job.  i hope he quits.