dealing with really mean sisters…
well, i’ve really been working on forgiving my horrible sisters. i’ve been working through email trying to find out why they’ve been so mean lately. they hadn’t made much of an effort to speak with me or my family since our r.a.d. daughter went to live with my parents. no support, understanding, nothing from them. not even any questions as to what happened to remove t from the home.
anyway, i’ve been asking questions and trying to re-establish a relationship between us. they’ve both responded but sometimes it’s like looking back at horribly bad communication skills that we grew up with or just responses i don’t get any answers from but more confusion.
now i’m finding out that they really are going to italy together. hello, is there any consideration to how that may make me feel? i can’t imagine planning a huge trip to someplace exotic and only inviting one sister. this is really mean. really, really mean. maybe i deserve this by opening myself up to them and wanting to be a part of their lives. i was just asking for hurt. now how to deal with this in a healthy manner. i don’t know. i want to lash out in anger. i want them to hurt for hurting me. i think i actually feel hate toward them right now.